The Pinocchio Syndrome – Avoiding the pitfalls to achieving your dreams

I had an interesting astrology reading the other day. I had a few before but didn't get the full information as I had with this last very amazing astrologer. Turns out I am an artist of the highest degree called a high intuitive but I already know this. What was most interesting to me and answered a troubling issue I encountered many times, is why I kept running into business partnerships that left me playing catch up when the relationships ended.

I spent the better part of my life working to uplift and support all that crossed my path. At my own expense most times. I have traveled vast distances to work with a family or an individual sometimes sponsored by others I met along the way. Of course, I am grateful for the support from both terrestrial and celestial sources. Despite the gifts I have, over the years even before I understand the fullness of my capabilities I would meet individuals and situations where I’d stop my progress to support and assist them in some way; from long coffee breaks where I sat patiently listening to their stories and giving guidance, to telephone conversations where I am seen as a person’s best mate, expected to give guidance for free. For a long time, I thought, “There’s lots more where that came from”. Although that was the case, time was passing me by in a hurry while I tarried in support of in-need “friends”.

I was tired of the cycle I was on but could not see the way off. What I found out in the astrological reading was that despite all the knowing that I have on a high order, I had a fatal flaw, in the work and business area of my chart. It shows I am free to love – but mustn’t mix love with work or both will fail, which it has. I have a strong spiritual connection, but in business and career, destined to be stuck in a loop of growth, then distraction which, pulls me off my progress, standing still, then back to growth like the character, Pinocchio. I never liked the story of Pinocchio, because I felt that Pinocchio was set up from the moment he was created. He would strive for the ability to feel - to be a real boy, but had to always be vigilant, watch out for the things that would derail his progress, except he was not aware that they were there.  Pinocchio had a dream, but something in him attracted time wasters and crafty ones who wanted to make their wealth off his ability, keeping him in his wooden state that of a marionette.

Armed with the vital piece from the astrology reading, I now know that even though I have been aware that the choices I made in the past were not in my best interest, I was drawn to them because of an inner destiny, that until I became aware of what it was could not shift. I now know clearly what to look for, I am aware of the sensation that tells me I am being pulled in a direction which will stall my growth, and that I am not crazy. 

You are not crazy. If you feel yourself on a loop, take a look at recurring themes. If you cannot figure it out, find a good astrologer to show you on paper what challenges you were born with and need extra work.

You can shift the flaw in this lifetime. Knowledge is king! You are not doomed to follow the same rut in the road! Once you know that the wall is a mirage, you can walk right through it. Be brave - find out what your inner challenge is and then shift it.

The Importance Of Words To Heal

Words are delicious or they can be poison. It is up to each of us what words taste like. For example, "You look beautiful." is delicious to the person you are sharing these words with. "You are a good for nothing." is like eating poison the that person has shared. Many of us grew up in environments where the latter statement was use indiscriminately. We were force fed the toxic words that shaped our tender minds, damaging our psyche. To think that we are capable of using words to destroy ourselves or others is outside of the realm of reason. Remember the childhood rhyme, "Sticks and stones may break my bones, But words can never hurt me?" This rhyme is now obsolete. We are now using words to hurt ourselves or being like a mosquitoes in the ears of others. We have become verbal terrorists. Deliberately using words like bombs and guns to cause destruction in our wake.

One thing I know is that as a child I grew up hearing that I was not as good as my cousins who didn't do as well as I in school, I carried that negative voice with me into my adult life, but used the "Sticks and stones..." rhyme to keep me safe from others negative verbal regurgitation. I lifted myself up by reprogramming my mind, with positive thoughts.

Something happened when I was about thirteen years old. My grandmother was being her usual self, a bully, telling me that I was unclean, because I was having my period. She kept reminding me I was dirty because I was a girl. That I would not amount to anything in her estimation. I was feeling so hurt, and alone in that moment, that I walked away from her and went to a rock that was above the house which had a hollowed out seat and I sat down. I was angry at being trapped in the experience and all of a sudden I felt as if I was growing. I felt myself grow up above the trees and I could see beyond my grandmother's home. I was able to see past the place that was causing me pain. I heard in my mind a voice which said, "You are greater than the experience you are in." I got it! It was really true. My grandmother used sticks and stones that hurt my bones just as she tried to use her words to hurt me, but I was shown that I was more than the pain I was experiencing. And you know something, She suffered a stroke about a year later and my sisters and I cared for her tenderly, we did not allow her own poison to make us like her. She did not change much when she got better, but I grew beyond her toxicity.

If you are under attack at home, in secret or in public, be aware that you are greater than the experience you are in. Nothing can hurt your spirit especially not words. It has no power over you except for the time you take to stop and consider it.

The importance of change

In Vancouver, we have been pleasantly treated to a soggy, rainy winter. I believe the farmer's almanac predicted that we would be inundated by snow, this winter. I did not want snow. Snow can be inconvenient, blocking the roads, creating slushy transport not to mention traffic issues. I know that the people in most of the US and the rest of Canada and parts of the world can agree that snow is no picnic. My mother, enjoyed the short vacation of staying at home because the buses and subway where she lives were going no where. So, I relaxed in the divine view that I do not have to shovel rain. Many automobile owners had, in November, bought snow tires in preparation for the deluge expected, only to be let down by the lack of snow.

Imagine my surprise this morning when I woke up to snow. I was a little nervous at the big, fat snow drops that were drifting from the sky. I had become used to the rain. I know, not many people like the wet stuff, but I had become used to rain, to the safety that for me the rain provided, as opposed to the insecurity brought from the snow. Well I did not have to be discomforted because the snow went as quickly as it came. Whew!!!

So what does this have to do with the importance of change. I feel that change shakes us up. Enjoying the same thing on a day to day basic leads to a type of complacency. We become like the log lying in the forest, getting soggy and dried out until moss begins to grow on us. Soon mushrooms join the moss and we become hosts to complacency, the doldrums, fatigue and physical angst. Like the sand dollars in the oceans and the trees in the forest, it is a really good idea to embrace change. Even if it is a tiny change like rolling over, change is a really good thing for us to embrace.

Let's face it everything is changing. Time is changing. Nature is in constant change. We are also shifting and changing energetically, emotionally, physically despite our resistance. So, let us join hands and sing... (kidding). Got you worried didn't I. That is the shake up I experienced this morning which woke me from the little stagnation I was in. Enjoy the changes as they come...you can't avoid it anyway.